Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I'm going home, or am I leaving home?



I'm going home, or am I leaving home?
What a sweet burden home is.
I've gone as far away from it as I could,
and still I'm carrying it.
Or it's carrying me?
I'm so confused that I want to cry.
I don't know where I am,
and I don't know where I'm going.
But I'm about to move again.
I thought it would be clearer;
I thought I would know what I would miss,
and where I want to be.

In the morning the bells will ring,
to wake me for tea.
It's the last time I will hear them.
There are no bells where I'm going,
and the tea is different.
But I'm bringing some of this tea back with me.
Such a little piece of this place,
carried so far away.
They can drink it at my home,
but they can't hear the bells;
for them it will just be strange tea.
Just a taste on the tongue.

I think I remember who I was,
when I left home before.
But who am I now?
Such childish questions,
I feel childish.
It's years since the unanswerable questions
seemed important like this.
Years since I had so many things I wanted to remember,
because they're all going away.
Except, of course, that they're not going anywhere.
It's me who's supposed to be going home,
wherever that is..

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

she? me?












who is she
what is she
she is what
she is love
love is she
i love love
i love?
am i love?
i am love..

but.

So long ago
it looks like so long ago

And when I look back
My heart is restless

I cry a little

I would want to laugh
but
I cry a little

I am trying












I am trying
real hard
not to shout

but it must come out

one day

I must say

no way..

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Drip Drop..












I’m
creatively
good
at the art of bleeding.
It was just a cut.
Wonder why
you’re
all blue
now.

Drip
Drop
Drip
Drop
Drip
Drop
Drip
No
More...

Blind


Blind
Love is not
Lust is..

Friday, March 26, 2010

Yet U dont!













Do U love me?
yes U do.
Yet U dont!
Coz U belive, insist & live in DONT!
.
Do I love U?
Yes I do.
Yet I dont.
Coz I realize, understand, accept U WONT.